Two Stories Of A Kind: Raped Victim Pregnant And At Cross Roads ; I Had 5 Abortions And May Not Be Pregnant Now

                                  

First Story

 There are two pathetic stories here and do yourself good to digest and cry for our men who rape ladies.

I dated this nincompoop for four years and in that four years, I had five abortions for him. The last abortion was particularly traumatic. We broke up four years ago and within a year he was married to someone else.

 He has two kids with his wife who is a co-worker he cheated on me with. I moved on with my life and fortunately met a great guy in 2012. I married him in early 2013 and a year later I haven't gotten pregnant yet. I went to see a doctor in December last year and after carrying out tests he asked me if I'd ever had an abortion. I initially lied but owned up after I realized how serious it was.

 The doctor said that I may have destroyed part of my womb but will keep treating me and I should be hopeful. I know that my ex and his wife are expecting their third child and this makes me very angry. I may never be able to have children and the cause of all this is living a fulfilling life. Short of having him killed, I don't know what else to do.

The anger I feel inside is immense and I'm gradually losing my sanity. I wrote an email to my ex and copied his wife explaining what was going on with me, and they both ignored me. How do I forgive this man and myself? There's nothing I want more than to be a mum. I'm going out of my mind and I am so bitter. Can anyone help.

Second Story

Brutally raped by someone she trusted and now she is pregnant....

I was raped and severely assaulted physically at the end of January/beginning of February this year, 2014 by a guy who was supposed to accommodate me because I ran away from my family as they were trying to force me into prostitution. Now I'm pregnant and a really kind-hearted family has taken me in. They are lovely and I only met them in February too. I told them about the incident and they have agreed to take care of me and my baby (if I decide to keep it). 

The only problem is this: I have a history, since I turned 17 of being chased out of the lives of people that show they love me at first. They judge me when I tell them why I ran away from home and eventually throw me out so I have a big problem with trusting anyone. These people could wake up one day and send me out of their home with my child and I will be homeless. 

I am not up to 2months pregnant yet and have been told that it's easier getting rid of the fetus at this time as it cannot really be called a baby yet. I am strongly against abortion but right now, I'm torn between keeping my baby and being sensible. I know everyone will want to bring in the 'abortion is a sin" statement but truth is if you've never been there, you'll never know.

Might I add that I get the fear of the stigma that comes with being a single mother in this part of the world as people around me always say they find it hard to get anyone who would marry them. When I told a friend about this, he called me a "used product" and that made me feel worse. I have no job, no family, NOTHING!!. Not even clothes to wear on my own body. It's hard to believe but it's true!

I'd appreciate mature advice from anyone going/have been through similar situation and mature minds. The issues are deeper than this but this is the most troubling at the time.